Sometimes things really are the darkest right before you see that perverbial "light at the end of the tunnel". I'm switching out photos because the other was too distracting, and my opening joke line might well have fallen a little flat on insufficiently unschooled readers. I think Lexi Carver needs a chorus of "Happy, Happy - Joy, Joy" right about now. I was also going to use our file photo of Lexi for six years ago but then I thought "Maybe I've used it already". This is a question we all have to answer whether we'll even admit it to ourselves or not. Of course then again there is the old adage of "Why does your toast always seem to land buttered side down?" Maybe it has something to do with physic or something. Around here this is supposed to be a "hospital setting". But I wouldn't let news people in here. Besides people dropping like flies like our own version of "Hospital" or something, we have not only patients picking up their own dropped medication, but the staff will pick up the dropped pill for you and hand it to you. That wouldn't be so bad since the floors are mopped regularly. But the thing is they are mopped with dirty water. Often the floors are dirtier AFTER being mopped up than before. As to that janator in the girl's restroom getting toilet water to do the job- - that would be a step up in cleanliness around here. But my oppertunity is that- - people need to develop their imune systems like I have. I'm not worried. I've built up a tollerance to the local germs. But my primary question is the whole thing about personal bias dictating which side of an issue you are going to "break" on, to use a surfing term. Take the whole Wall Street thing. By the way as I told Bill, I think there used to be an actual Wall along Wall Street - - and in exact reverse from Anaheim, in NY the streets run east and west and the "Avenues" run north and south, and are usually longer, such as Madison Avenue or Fifty Avenue. I guess 59th street other than being a Simon and Garfunkle song is also the southern border of Central Park. "Enough of the geography lesson already!" Let's take the whole Lehman Brothers deboccle of September of 2008 they discussed on Sixty Minutes. I told you that the financial mismanagement and fraud was carried out right under the noses of investigators from the Bush Administration. Now there is this Ed Schultz fill in that KPOJ has a lot on who has a Clinton clone accent- - and I guess he cops to being an attorney for people who sue Wall Street. Which is fine because from another source I heard that Att Gen Holder used to be a Reagan appointee for a post, and used to serve as an attorney Defending these Wall Street manipulators and crooks. It is pointed out- - you didn't have to wait for the answer- - that the answer to the posed question of "Who has gone to jail for the disasters of 2008- - or who has even been even indicted for the attrocities of 2008- - - the answer is "No one". Just play that "crickets" sound card you have on file at this point. I did a posting a while back saying "This President has been softer on Wall Street than any other President, and Obama even makes the Bush administration look better by comparrison". But this personal bias carries over into personal lives. For instance today Will Horton was trying to get all high and mighty over some moral issue involving his mother. And he was ready to draw that perperbial line in the sand for E J Di Mira. It's this whole "Nobody can be my friend unless they personally agree with me on this issue". Will doesn't have the "Moral Capital" to make that judgement. He NEEDS E J too much. People learn quickly which side their bread is buttered on. For instance with Proposition 29 I have done a flip flop. The local lady host came out against Proposition 29 and her callers thought she was some traitor to the left. The funny thins all of those Callers were making the Same Arguments I myself Would have made a week ago. But since I have "seen the light" in the form of green dollar signs. I started doing the math and figured I'd be paying the government an additional two hundred dollars a year for cancer research. Suddenly I'm saying "I"m generous but not THAT generous". How is a person of my means justified in GIVING two hundred dollars in one year to ANY charity? It makes no sense. When you add to this that the terms of this Proposition cannot be altered for fifteen years. Each and every Flaw is nailed down and locked in for 15 years. Period. And by the way it IS "Out of state jobs". Why not produce jobs IN California is you're going to do it? And also just by the way and Judy may have made this point "Not buying a product hurts the economy of California. It hurts the tobacco companies but it also hurts the local store, and also will hurt others if I decide NOT to by another product because I need THAT money for cigarettes. Think about it.
I would like to thank Sarah for giving me a ride to the bank today. I got to see the new van even if it happens to be a rental for now. As you know we were robbed a few weeks ago, and the cops have the suspects face on file but still haven't nailed him. Unless you've heard more recent news. It actually saved me from calling up Bill Gunderson for a ride. ("You're back to using the alias again, I see") Yeah and as you know relations between me and Bill Gunderson have been a little ragged and our last exchange didn't go well, and I'd just as soon extend the "cooling off" period for as long as possible. I could call Bobby Hayden or someone or wait till Saturday. As you know Pete Richards (another revived alias) must have told Henry and Bobby Hayden about my "acholic mishap" back on June first of 2001. It was a scenario that played itself out right out of the lyrics of a Bob Dylan song. A man collapses in the gutter and just lays there till someone calls the cops. Relations between me and Henry were still awkward. But with Bobby- - his act of reaching out to me is appreciated. I think he gave me some book on "Why Aocholics Anonamus Doesn't Work" or something. And he gave me that pack of typing paper so I could use it to write down my thoughts like Don Burnum or somebody. Now I use the pages- - I cut sheets up into quarters and use them to make out the laundry list each week for Denise. Me and Bobby had good relations again for quite a number of years - - and then we drifted apart - - again, and it is probably more my fault than his. But I wouldn't want our "first contact" consisting of my asking him for a favor, like being driven to the bank. Richard says, "It's less than four miles. Why don't you just walk the distance". I don't know how he does it- - but I'm just not into doing an over seven mile round trip for only a few dollars in cash.
In soap land- - there are a lot of what I'd call "constructive' is not theraputic conversations. Nicole is showing that she can indeed be a friend to Carrie, despite a natural "interest" in NOT being her friend, which would serve her own Ego interests better. But she chose to rise above these. I wish a lot of Politicians would go thow and do likewise. Forget "which side their bread is buttered on" and go and Do the Right Thing. You saw it again with Kate Roberts and Samantha. Kate decided to cut Samantha a little slack and absorb her hostility- - for the better good of the relationship. Her love for her grandchildren outweighs personal problems she has with her ex daughter in law. And you see it again with E J and Will Horton. E J decided to confide in Will that he has parental relation problems of his own, and maybe Will should cut his mother a little slack. I'm not normally on Samantha's side but in this case I am because I know Exactly how she feels and I can't think but what I'd do exactly what she did, when confronted with the news that my oldest Son was Gay. I'd be fit to be tied. And I'm not going through all the other problems in my life Sammy is going through. Friendship is important. People need a friend. E J is wise enough to know that Will needs a friend. Someone who is just a little removed from the situation and whom he can trust. I think it's much better to be honest with someone you can be trust and cagy around a person you can't - - rather than it being the other way around. There came that point in my life around January 1974 though I'd be hard pressed to put a date on it- - that my chief "source of income" was no longer my own parents. I was dependent on a source "Not Them" from then on- - and never again would I have to be "dependant' to the extent I had been as a youth growing up, on them. Though even now I feel a certain ammount of "economic pressure" to act in a certain way and hold certain oppinions about certain things. I think Catholic Church money was instrumental in"molding" Catholic theology into what it is today, but that's another story.
This has been a different kind of posting- - on the idea of loyalty and friendship and trust. But sometimes it's even necessary to say "Good bye' to loyal trusted friends- - as in the case of a terminal illness. Then you have "The long good-byes" like Lexi is doing now with all of her friends. After such a "fulfilling day" of family portrates and remonicing - - and all, she now says "I think I'm going to go into the bedroom and lie down a moment". Why did I suddenly get Deja Vu of Elvis telling Ginger that fateful late morning, "I think I'm going into the bathroom to read a little". And the very last thing anybody said to Elvis was her response, "Just don't fall asleep". One concept in that posting about "concave space" is that "the other side" could refer to a relation in Mass. That is This Side of the Ether things are Heavier than Ether- - but on the other side things are "lighter" than Ether. As in the case of Kurtosis in statistics, some things are relative and people haven't yet settled on a fix definition of Kurtosis. I got used to the Wolframalpha.com one - - but Excel uses a different calculation. As I may have told you "not all flat liners are born equal" in Wolfram, but in Excel they are. So what's a body to do? We call something "ZERO" because it's our frame of reference and even Einstain says "What constitutes a Stationary point is entirely relative". So it is with atnosphere. We don't feel it usually or see it usually- - but still it is a transcendant force all around us. So it is with Ether. They just called a monthly Meeting and it's approaching three o clock. I think I'm going to have a cigarette now and join them. When I got up I did not have that option. You know- - when you come down to it the mechanics of the eye is a two dimensional affair. Our retenas are primarily two dimensional. So that the third dimension is more of an inferred or learned one- - rather than an intrinsic part of our reception apperatus. It's kind of like linear logic is how a Computer relates even though other forms may be more "efficient' in terms of speed. Maybe we don't have God's 2012 production model but are working off "an earlier version" right now. But the bottom line is that people are intrigued with the notion of "sides". There is THIS side and THAT side- - and people polarize around either one or the other, as in this election year process. But on a Rush album- - the idea is broached somewhere along the line that perhaps each side should try a little harder to see the other's point of View.
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